I do know we all have complicated lives.. But in the end what everyone needs to remember is "we all" do, including myself.. I have always found it fascinating how people's lives collide and how friendships are made through these random events in life. To think that just one different choice or action could change the random event of meeting another person is kind of crazy..
Think about that for a second...
I truly believe there is a reason behind how and when we meet different people throughout our lives.. Not all of these random meetings will have a deep significant meaning.. Nor will they blossom into a long term friendship.. These random meeting may also mean more to one of the two people involved and there is nothing wrong with that..
With that said.... one thing I cannot stand is when a person constantly tries to "test" the relationship.. To me that is playing games... Shows me that a person doesn't truly appreciate or value what is right in front of them. I don't have time for any of this.. I am not going to constantly waste my time trying to prove my friendship.. Doing so is emotionally draining..
The craziest thing is a true friendship should be everything but emotionally draining.. Friends lean on each other during the hard times.. Friends laugh together during the good times. Friends have mutual respect for each other.. Friends should not place themselves over each other (meaning they should not think of themselves as "better" than the other).
Anyone that knows me knows I am a very trustful, caring, and loving person. Do I expect too much? Are my standards too high? I don't think so.. I do understand friends will not always agree on certain topics and they will have arguments.. The interesting thing about arguments/ disagreements between friends is how much the argument escalates and the things said during these arguments. The hurtful comments say a lot about the person. Acting smug and arrogant only shows that they don't care or they think that they have some kind of power over the other person..
People mistake my kindness and love sometimes and think that they can talk down to me or think that they have some kind of control over.. Or act as if they are better than me.. The sad thing is I am one of the truest friends a person can have.. I would do anything for a friend.. I would give someone the last penny in my pocket if they needed it.. I would and have let people move in and sleep in our bed while Brandon and I slept on the couch.. Literally I would do anything to help a friend even if it meant I had to give something up..
There is only so much I can take.. Especially when I constantly go out of my way to help.. It's disheartening to be treated horribly because of issues that have nothing to do with me.. and when I always try to help..
Most people don't think of me as an emotional person.. But I am.. My feelings get hurt over certain things pretty quick.. And if it keeps happening u are chipping away at the friendship.
